Berlin, July 2017


I went on this Berlin trip with Robert and Liina. We arrived at noon, last day of June, and we had a beer at the airport. The streets in Neukölln, where we stayed for ten days, were filled with the smell of linden trees, which was unexpected and beautiful. In Bucharest, linden trees go into blossom in late-May. I somehow forgot that Berlin is a Northern city, where days last forever in summer. It was so bright at 6pm, like the day was about to start. No glance of afternoon or sunset. The light was still strong and vibrating at 9pm, and I felt like I was high. My plan was to visit some of Berlin’s lakes. I first went to Krumme Lanke, with Robert, then to Müggelsee and Plötzensee by myself, and to Liepnitzsee with Liina and Zveti. The water was a bit cold, but somehow it’s really rewarding to swim in a cold water, surrounded by forests. And when you get out of the water, you feel strong and free. I didn’t get very nostalgic to see Berlin again, except for when I went to the Botanical Garden. It was late in the afternoon, and it was the most beautiful light and smell, golden and mild, with so many perfumes. As I was resting near some lavanda flowers, a fox showed up. It made me really happy to see her, so I followed her a bit, and took some pictures of her. A woman working at the Botanical Garden told me that there is a family of five foxes living there. It was almost closing time, so I had to leave. I came across another employee, preparing to leave. He had a beer in his hands, like everybody in Berlin.























Pink


I went to the office today and saw an amazing pink sky. The grandmother of Ruxandra, one of my colleagues, told her that the sky is pink when there are winds blowing (e vremea vantoasa).


Morning, early 2017

Waking up at 6 am every day comes with a short moment of horror. (Probably also because it's after only a few hours of sleep, sometimes as little as two or three). It's like having a few seconds when your mind sees with high clarity where you are, what you are. I see myself lonely, afraid of getting old, afraid of dying. I think of my parents, my friends. In those few seconds, I know who I am- or at least that's the feeling. Then I normally turn on the laptop, maybe get out of bed to make a tea. That's always calming and nice because it reminds me of my life with my parents. That's how every morning would start at home, with tea boiling on the cooker, them getting ready for work, me preparing for school. Then I check Facebook to see if I have any messages, I look at Sumi, who is  still sleeping. Or she may already be awake, asking for food.

And sometimes, I remember to look outside the window. It's still dark at 6am, but an hour later, it's day again. By 9am it's already too bright. It's my favourite moment then. I am done with work, so I pull the curtains and get in my bed for the sweetest three-hour sleep. The phone is on do-not-disturb and nothing can be more important than sinking into a deep sleep.



Frasinet, 2017

Adina turned 30, and she threw a party in Cluj. I arrived on Friday evening, slept at Alexandra Gavrila (& Ale Cosma & Arpi), drank beer, talked, listened to Ocean Drive. Slept until 2 pm, then went to meet Adina. Goga and Edi had come from Bucharest too, but they weren't at Adina's apartment when I got there. They arrived a bit later with a lot of presents and flowers. Adina was very happy. She also received from them a silver bracelet with a small heart. Party in Papillon, then some more party in Shelters, then I slept at Ciupe's place. I was tired and drunk, and I fell asleep immediately. I woke up in the morning at 12. Ciupe's dog Gustav got in the bed, and was all over me, the most affectionate & crazy dog in the world, huge, loving and extremely enthusiatic. I turned my head and I saw Ciupe with Sara on his chest kneading her paws (facea painici). It was extremely sunny, and his room is so much bigger than mine. I had a glimpse of what happiness looks like. To wake up like that, in a room with many animals (or at least a dog and a cat), with your partner, and the animals equally distributed between you two; and of course, a big room and a lot of sun. I was hungover, but not feeling bad at all. This was the morning's soundtrack: Heartless Bastards - Only For You [HQ]We went for a walk with Gustav- Cluj was cold and sunny. After some small, narrow streets, we were on the main boulevard, then right on the shore of Somes. Gustav was excited and playing in the snow, not so much snow as in Bucharest though. And Ciupe told me a great story, that he once spotted a white hamster on the shore of the Somes river. The animal was carrying some big piece of food. He showed me the exact spot where he had seen it. No coffee until two hours later when we arrived at some restaurant with Hungarian decorations where Adina will organise her wedding. But until we got there, we went to Decathlon to buy some swimming suits. Then we joined the others at the Hungarian restaurant and talked about last night. I ate a gulas, which was really tasty, and I also bought a coffee and a beer. I had some doubts about that, but one of the guys said don't worry, it's not such a bad combination. Then we continued our drive to Frasinet- where we stayed for almost two days in a wooden guesthouse, with a pool room.
The pictures are from the last day, when we took a short walk in the village. The light was incredible, and so were the hills. On the second day we stayed in some jacuzzi-like thing, outside, at -15 degrees, and it was so nice. We drank some wine, not a lot though, cause it was hot inside, and even got outside a few times to put some snow on my face and hands, then returned to the jacuzzi (it used to be a more traditional ciubar, but the owner had replaced it).